What is going on today

Here I sit in my dead silent living room.  My littlest princess sound asleep in the bedroom.  Today was a wonderful day.  I started out by bringing Alexis to the street fair this morning.  I gave her 25.00 of her allowance money and I had taken 50.00 in cash.  We looked around the street fair at everything.  I wound up not spending a single penny on myself.  It all went to things for Kat and Lexy.  Of course Katelin ripped the big toy I got for her before the day was over, which caused me to make an emergency run to the store to get a needle and thread.  I traded up the girls around noonish, then Kat and I had dinner with my mom and brothers.  We had Pizzadillas (look on early blog entry for how to make them).  Dinner was a hit.  Saturday night.  Everyone knows how I feel about Sunday's by now.  At least tomorrow will be broken up a bit because I am working 4 hours of overtime.

After an awesome week it had a pretty sucky end.  Oh well.  I wanted to teach Alexis (my 10-year old) a little about being responsible.  I told her we were going to go to the street fair, but we had to go grocery shopping and get gas first.  That even got delayed a bit because I forgot about a promise I made to my brother. (Which ate up about a half hour) We finally finished our errands on this wonderful sunny friday when it started sprinkling on the way to the gas station.  On the way from the gas station to the street fair it started doing a little bit more than sprinkling.  I told her we would park for 15 minutes and if it stopped raining we would still go to the fair.  We sat parked and Lexy tried to tell me she didn't mind the rain.  I looked at the windshield while the raindrops were making quarter-sized splotches.  I explained to her that while she may not mind the rain, I doubted that even the vendors were open during that.  I think the street fair will still be running tomorrow so I promised he we would go tomorrow morning.  It kinda sucked because she had been really looking forward to it.

What can I say I am in a good mood again today!  I get paid tomorrow and i am going to be rich woohoo!!!  Tomorrow's check is going to be what I had thought it would have been last time.  Imagine my surprise when I looked it up earlier today. What to do with the excess?  There is no such thing as excess for me.  Hopefully I can add to the divorce fund.  I told the Christian he was paying for the divorce because if I had had a say in the matter we wouldn't be divorcing.  Then he bounced the check for the filing fee.   Grrrrrrrr.  Now I just want this thing to be done and over with.  Cut that fucker loose.  But all he can do is moan and complain about finances.  He reminds me of the customers I have who are bouncing their account and blaming the bank.  How many more excuses is he going to make?  Well I told him I'd contribute money to it whenever I had a chance.  I figure the more I contribute the sooner it will be official.  Then he can go off and marry his BSB.  She is welcome to him.  Just keep your face out of mine.  Don't misconstrue that statement for forgiving her because that is NEVER going to happen.

Well today was hump day.  I finally got half way through the week.  Payday day after tomorrow wooohoooo! Lol.  I am debating on what to cook for dinner with my mother this weekend.  I have run out of specialties unless....I know I'll get a variety of ingredients and make pizadillas.  Those are so good.  You take a flour tortilla, put pizza sauce on it, toppings cheese.  Bake it in the oven for 4 minutes at 425.  There you have a pizzadilla.  they are easiest to eat if you fold them over and cut them in half, but they are so yummy.  That is what I'll do.  Its fun, easy and something I haven't cooked for them yet 8). 

This is the funniest thing.  I never know what I am going to write about until I start typing.  Writing in the blog is an awesome way for me to process what is going on in my life and figure out how I am going to handle situations.  It is also a really good way for me to get my feelings out.  I find it very difficult sometimes to put into words exactly what I am feeling.  That is where my poetry comes in.  There are only about 3 or 4 poems out of them million and a half that weren't inspired by my internal feelings.

I have been enjoying the last few days.  The wanderer has been keeping me constantly entertained.  I know all he wants is friendship.  Maybe just a little more, I think a rekindling of a deep friendship.  We have been catching each other up with stories of what happened during the past 20 years as well as stories from 20 years ago.  One good one is the time he got stopped for speeding.  He had picked me up in Osseo, driving me to Appleton.  He was doing 69 in a 55 while doing 69 with me.  That was when I was 19 and he was 18.  Back in the good old days when we were newly the owners of our own destinies without enough experience to realize that life wasn't all fun and games.