I am alone surrounded by many voices in the distance. The closer ones will always be there. the farther ones are there by chance. I move closer to the farther ones. They move away I keep trying, they move away. I call for some of them they continue to move away. I ask for some more helpful voices to help me, they do, but not for long. then a few meaner voices come to yell, to try to be accepted by the larger group. I fight against them. I too wish to be part of the larger group.
Two small groups break off from the larger, they start to accept me. I accept them. one is made of more male, the other female. the female more accepting the male more reluctant.
Then one of the voices I thought would always be there is ripped from me, this hurts me greatly. It will leave a scar that will always be there.
One female voice comes closer from the female group for a the moment I am happy. I am then pulled violently away from most of these voices. only to be left with the voices that will always be there.
I am pulled towards a new set of voices. I try to accept them, but only one does, the others reject me. This upsets me, so I reject them all. I move away and go to a quiet place to where the voices are all a great distence away. After awhile I realize this is a mistake.
After awhile I find voices long forgotten. One from a small part of the greater group captures my attention. I listen to it. I try to get closer but I am speechless. Another voice from this group introduces me to another group I try to be a part of this group but they seem distant.
Another group comes, a very small group pretending to be friendly, they are not, they harass another group. I defend them. Then another voice very mean tears me away and tries to destroy me. I fight back almost destroying myself in the process. I thankfully survive stronger then I was.
I try to be a part of both the fogotten and distant groups, but niether understands me, so I move on.
I find a new group more accepting then the other groups. I am no longer as lonely as I was. I find a voice that reminds me of a voice I once knew. I accept this voice and try to stay near.
Then another voice comes It capures my interest I accept it, the voice accepts me, I am happier then I have ever been. Then voice begins to ignore me, this makes me sad. so I start to ignore it myself, even though I would give up all other voices just to be with this voice forever. So, I move on again...
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