What is going on today

I had a wonderful day with the three most important people in the world.   My Angel and my two little girls.   We went out to eat, movie.   We watched a movie about a snail that wanted to compete in the Indy 500.  It was a very very odd movie.  The girls were thrilled to spend the day with Angel.  I know they had missed him too.  They really like him.  

Wow yesterday was the first time that I completely blew of my blog.  I had very good reason.  My sweetie came back last night. I was a little on the distracted. Yesterday nothing else mattered to me except that my wonderful Angel was back. They say absence makes the heart grow fonder.   That is absolutely true.   The thing is we were already bordering on obsession with each other already. We were completely in our own world and both of us were in complete awe of each other.  So I am sorry I blew off one day. 

Yesterday was definitely a full day .  After work I didn't have the girls because of the atheist meet.  I still haven't told Leon I am an atheist. I haven't lied about it, I just haven't volunteered any information or corrected any misinformation. Am I morally obligated to tell him anything? I don't really think so. I know I will tell him eventually, but it is really none of his business.

Wow my Vas can read between the lines. I could use a friend tonight, but not because of daddy issues. Last night I was actually doing a little more than just cleaning. I was preparing for my sweetie's return.  I wanted everything to be perfect. When I talked to him last night, l found out he wasn't going to be back until Friday.   Yes, I have been down today. It's not that I miss him terribly, which I do, it's more that I put up the extra effort to prepare.  I am not angry with him. I know that it was circumstances beyond his control. I will be okay, I just need a day to brood and bitch about how unfair life is, and I will be fine. I hope he doesn't see this till he gets back because I don't want him to feel bad or blame himself because he is not to blame. I guess I will see my sweetheart again when I see him. I am not going to believe another return date until he is safely back in my arms again. I would hate to suffer another disappointment. 

I had an interesting evening.  My sweetie isn't back yet.  He got delayed in South Dakota and should be back tomorrow. Also Leon has the week off and wanted extra time with the girls, so no girls tonight either.   So I had a quiet evening alone doing mostly cleaning. Then my dad called. He called me to tell me that he couldn't visit this month. I never knew he planned to visit in the first place. This coming from the guy who, after I dragged two little girls10 hours, spent most of the time ignoring and avoiding them. He felt a party was more important than spending time with them at a park with rides.  He did of course make sure to get his glamour shots with them first at the petting zoo and on a couple of rides before he abandoned us.  He is very good at abandoning kids. From birth till he came back at 18, he only visited once when I was 8.  Sorry I am a bit bitter. He promised he would call once a month. I say more power to him. I usually spend most of my time pretending he doesn't exist. Between him and my step dad I have had such good luck with dads.  I personally don't need a dad, but I don't want to deprive the girls of their grandpa if he decides to make an effort.  The ball is definitely in his court.