What is going on today

Yesterday was just exhausting, that is why I am commenting on it the next day.  It was a normal Saturday, dinner with mom.  I had invited the Enforcer.  My mom and brother both made comments that they were reserving judgement but they liked him.  He trusts me too.  Mickey needed some groceries and he sent me extra money just so we could make sure that he was covered.  He had told me his goal was to make me happy, well you haven't been able to wipe the grin off my face for the last week.

What can I say I am happy.  The Enforcer is spoiling me rotten.  We finally released another video for Honestly mom.  It could have been edited a little better.  The FM Secular community accepted our friend request.  We saw the meeting for next week and are looking forward to it. 

Tonight Dante and I attended an Atheist meetup.  Those people were so cool and easy-going.  Half the time they seemed to be playing Chinese fire-drill.  We got to meet at least half the group without even leaving our chairs.  People kept moving down our way so that they could meet us.  We felt so welcome.  I don't think I have felt that welcome in a large group of people in a long time.  I felt truly at home like I belonged there.  I called Leon tonight to talk about plans with the girls.  It was kind of funny, he seemed to be trying to get me tell him about the Enforcer without straight out asking about him.  I had dropped something off at his house the other day with the Enforcer in my passenger seat.  Ever since then he always seems like he wants to say something but doesn't.  Tonight is the closest he has come to asking without actually asking.  I love seeing him squirm.  He wants to know but seems to be avoiding prying.  I wonder if and how much the girls have told him.

Teeter Totter
Up and down
When I'm happy
You will frown

So I throw my smile away
So I can brighten up your day

Teeter Totter
Up and down
When you're happy
I will frown

Let us go our separate ways
Find some other friends to play

Teeter Totter
Standing Still

Maybe both
Can have a thrill

My turn to find some other friends and be happy.

I am not sure what to talk to about tonight.  All I can think about is the Enforcer.  He is so sweet.  Every time he talks he has nothing but compliments on his lips.  He makes me feel very special.  He tells me his one goal in life is to make me happy and to treat me like I should have been treated all along.  Little by little my walls are starting to crumble.  I don't think it will be long before I am fully invested.  That kind of scares me though.  Every man I have trusted has stomped all over me.  His promises are wonderful, but talk is cheap.  Again I say, we'll see what the future holds. 

Well I have gone and done it.  I have agreed to become exclusive with the Enforcer.  So far he has been very sweet to me.  He has been spoiling me rotten.  He keeps talking about what we will do months down the line, sometimes years down the line.  I will admit I am slightly hesitant.  That is only because of the mistrust I feel toward all men.  He is however starting to melt away some of my fears.  I hope he keeps at least half the promises that he has been making.  Only time will tell.