What is going on today

Day 2 without my sweety.  I spoke with my darling Simi today.  I guess I was wrong, not all of her children have come back to her. One still has yet to make her appearance.  Two that have come back have all but alienated themselves because of their boyfriends.  I feel for my Simi very deeply.   I cannot imagine the emotional pain she still bares.  I wish you all the love and comfort of a full and united family my dear.  Even with as rough as my life has been, I have so many friends that have gone through much worse.  It makes me thankful for what I do have.  I have my 2 darling little princesses and my wonderful guardian Angel to fill my life with joy.  I love you my sweetheart, come back to me soon and safe and sound.  My open arms are eagerly awaiting you. 

Sitting quietly and comfortably alone in my house tonight.  My mind constantly straying to SD where my sweety is.  I hope he does call me tonight because I do so love hearing his voice.  I will understand if he doesn't.  He is busy and does have a lot of work to do.  By the time he gets done it won't be long till my bedtime.  I just hope he knows that my thoughts and my heart are with him.

I wish my sweety would relax and just enjoy the way he claims he has.  He keeps telling me things like, "You'll be mine for ever unless you change your mind, then I'll go quietly on my way."  I do not question his devotion, I see it in his eyes every time he looks at me, its just he seems to always need to nay say.  He told me tonight, that I get a week to see if life would be better without him.  I told him I already knew the answer to that question.  Its almost like he feels like he is in a dream and he expects to be woken up any minute, or that he thinks I will change my mind and send him away.  I'm not quite sure what it is, but I wish he would realize that I am in it for the long run.  I do understand I have an out.  Everyone always has an out whether their partner likes it or not.  I just wish he would stop showing me that option, and just relax and enjoy and realize that I do see the exit sign and purposely turn the other way.

Today was hell.  Work offered an incentive of $125.00 for working an 8 hour overtime shift.  To understand, I don't mind working on my days off....I usually only do 4 hours at a time, but I couldn't pass up the bonus plus overtime.  Then I come home and find out that my sweety needs to travel for his work.  I am going to miss him, but I don't begrudge him the oppertunity.  I have no idea why, but I trust him.  I peaceful and comfortable in my trust of him.  This surprises even me because I didn't think I would trust another man again.  Maybe I am a fool.  Maybe I am looking through rose colored glasses, but something tells me I am not.  My trust in him does not come from the things he says or even most of the things he does.  It comes from his body language.  Things that I truly believe cannot be faked.  I don't think any man I have been with has showed as much affection as he has without even thinking about it.  I know he will prove himself true. 

My sweety is constantly showing that he is exactly  as he says.  He is very straight-forward. He will tell you exactly how he thinks.  He makes me laugh.  He is always very considerate and makes me feel special.  I hope this dream never ends.