Yaaay myt little Katelin has learned to ride her bike. My girls are growing up so fast. I just feel like I am missing out on half their life because they aren't with me all the time. I miss that simple life I used to have where I didn't
have to worry about drama. I didn't have to worry about everyone's intentions who became my friend. What is it about a divorce which brings out the scum of the earth? I have enough trouble balancing the budget, the home, the kids and the
work without having to worry if this friendly smile is hiding deceit. That last entry I made was very hard for me to admit. I kept making excuses even to myself. Now that it is widely known (or narrowly seeing as I only have a handful of
readers) that I have few friends I wonder if I am going to wind up a social pariah. "That woman is desperate" That is when I throw back my shoulders lift my chin and say I am fine. My family will supply my social needs, at least they won't
stab me in the back.
I just hope that I can work things out with Shawn so we can both relax into a friendship. I told him that I was going to either settle for friendship or hit the road. If I can't handle it there is no need
to make a mess of things. The good news is I can handle it and I am determined to handle it. Settling for friendship doesn't make the attraction go away, it just makes the pressure go away. He shouldn't have to worry about it, I will keep
an eye on my emotional side and we can just worry about laughing and joking and visiting Vas!!!!!
Yes Vas I can't wait to visit you, I miss you sooo much.