I haven't heard from Shawn since those couple of minutes at con. I wonder if he read my blog and freaked out. I don't care I will be dispassionate. That is what I keep telling myself. My problem is that everything I do I do with
my whole heart. i think now I understand why women have almost as much tendancy as men to throw away the friends in friends with benefits. The reason is that if they allow themselves to feel then they may wind up too attached and scare they guy
away. In today's society there is so much deceit and selfishness that no one feels the freedom to feel.