I had been looking back at some of the first entries into my blog. It seems almost like a totally different person back then. I guess part of it is that now that my sweety has come into my life, some of the loose ends that kept coming
back to haunt me have quieted down and put themselves into place. For instance, i finally feel like I am at home in my apartment. This whole time it was like coming to a stranger's home. I guess the only issue I have with the whole thing
is that he has talked about toughening me up. The only thing he doesn't realize is that if he toughens me up, it will destroy the parts about me he likes. He also has to understand that I do have a tough side. I have had to work hard not
to become bitter and cold to the world which has chewed me up and spit me out so many times over. Each time I have managed to come back with a sweet smile and a warm and cheerful dispostion.