Tonight was the last night of a long interesting weekend. I find that I am desiring to spend time with the Enforcer constantly. When he is not around, I can't get him out of my head. He wants to become exclusive. He keeps
pointing out that I keep coming back. I told him straight out that I need to answer one question before I can agree to being exclusive; Is my desire to be with him because I crave attention, or because I want to be with HIM? He tells me he
is fine either way. I just don't want to be unfair to him, which also mean I was being unfair to myself and the girls. I guess I have a lot of thinking to do. Then my general mistrust of guys is rearing its ugly head again. Man,
when I thought I had all the ill effects kicked, they come back again to haunt me. When will I be over it?