I am starting to look at life a little differently. I am giving up the idea of dating. I am giving up the idea of booty buddies. I think I will still enjoy my conversations with the Wanderer. I think I will see about continuing
to distract myself by spending time with friends, most likely the Knight on weekends. I am giving up any romantic ideas. I still have the idea that I want acceptance. The thing is that something clicked into place for me last night.
Just having acceptance and a comfortable hug. I want unconditional love that will accept me for exactly who I am. Anything less than that is just a distraction and not worth much emotional energy. Don't get me wrong, I am not completely cold
blooded, I do care about people, but I have to look out for my girls. The biggest part of looking after my girls is to look after me. I refuse to chase after smoke and mirrors any longer. If something is meant to be, it will come to me.