I had a very relaxing day today. I had a little trouble after I dropped off Alexis. I miss tucking my girls in every night. Its no fair. They are MY girls. That was MY home that I built. That was MY family, yet she
can rattle on about the Hamner household. I was the rightful lady of the Hamner household. I still carry the name. She is using him. She wants a family so she stole mine. I got rid of these feelings long ago, yet here they come
sneaking up again. Hell I have been out of there for 6 months now...why am I still feeling this way? Why am I relapsing? I feel like the third wheel...even with my girls. They are MY girls they are MY heart. Why can't I be with
them 24 hours a day. Why do I have to be on the outside looking in?